tin man.

You can't be like me
But be happy that you can't
I see pain but I don't feel it
I am like the old tin man

I'm as warm as a stone
I keep it steady as I can
I see pain but I don't feel it
I am like the old tin man

I miss that, I miss that, oh, I miss that feeling of feeling

I used to feel the sky around
With happiness and joy
I had news to give the wind
To keep my cells and heart employed

I felt people move around me
I felt loneliness and shame
Back then every day was different
Now each moment is the same

I miss that, I miss that, oh, I miss that feeling of feeling
I miss that, I miss that, oh, I miss that feeling of feeling
The feeling of feeling

The wind above my face
And carrying what it brings this way
The feeling of feeling
The minutes pass away
And carrying what I do with them
Maybe bring me love or something else

And so it goes, a man grows cold
Some would say a man grows strong
They say life only grows short
I say the road only grows long

But as long as there's a road
My feet will never touch the ground
And if you won't give my heart back
I've no need to stick around

I miss that, I miss that, oh, I miss that feeling of feeling
I miss that, I miss that, oh, I miss that feeling of feeling
The feeling of feeling
The feeling of feeling

3.

I just realized
I will wake up
Alone
on my daughter's 3rd birthday.
and that hurts.

headfulness of empty

My mind
is unable to think
anymore

How did this happen?

There is nothing
nothing left

in this mind

that used to be so positive

and sure

even about the unsure

Mentally, I can not think

anymore

sunken

There's rows and rows of houses
With windows painted blue
With the light from a TV
Running parallel to you

But there is no sunken treasure
Rumored to be
Wrapped inside my ribs
In a sea black with ink

I am so
Out of tune
With you

I am so out of tune
With you

If I had a mountain
I'd try to fold it over
If I had a boat (probably roll over)
You know I'd probably roll over (leave it on the shore)

And I leave it on the shore (leave it for somebody)
I'd leave it for somebody
Surely there's somebody
Who needs it more than me

I am so
Out of tune
With you

I am so out of tune
With you

For all the leaves will burn
In autumn fires and then return
For all the fires we burn
All will return

-Wilco.

In Our Darkest Hour
In My Deepest Despair
Will You Still Care?
Will You Be There?
In My Trials
And My Tripulations
Through Our Doubts
And Frustrations
In My Violence
In My Turbulence
Through My Fear
And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My Heart.
-Michael Jackson

...

I have NEVER seen it this dark before.

yes ma'am

You wonder why it is not the same.

It used to be charming.

You say it to others...

It's not so charming anymore.

this day.

Happy Birthday, you.

With out you, my life

oh my life

I can't even think about what my life

would be like

With out

You.

Graphic.

Shit.

Everywhere I look, I am covered in shit.

I am crawling in it

Every single time I think I can see

a glimmer of light

more shit falls in my face.

where is the light?

when will I be able to be free

to see past this mess

and fall into the river

with clean water

washing over me

washing off all of this heavy, smelly shit

that I have been stuck in for so long.

I am crawling,

gasping for air

and I honestly do not see a way out.

Dreamer.

There is a dreamer

in my dreams.


is that normal?

blank.

...

i dont know

where you are

so how can I reach out?

Still.

I am still.

Here.

Stillness

Everywhere.

Waiting...

Is the same as

Not moving,

I want to

I feel

Frozen

therefore

Stillness

Encapsulates

All of me.