show.

All I've been doing in my spare time is staring at my slideshow and watching what pictures come up with the words of the song.
I'm infatuated with watching it.
and finding more pictures to add to it.

Ok back to the slideshow...

me.

Take time to realize...
I am on your side.

It's been a while since I've written in my own words.
I've been plagiarizing from others
it's easier sometimes to express thoughts
when others can do it so easily and in such a poetic manner
it's almost like,
words put together can mean so many different things
so I choose what I want them to mean to me
and I use them.
Instead of my own.
I don't feel as creative when I write for myself.

But it can be that simple.

Like, for example, how can I express my feelings on the difference between being dissapointed, and just feeling hurt?

To me, dissapointment is huge. It means letting someone down. It's almost intentional, a cover up, knowing and doing one thing, but not revealing the truth.

I know this will hurt you. I know this is what I should not do, but I will do it anyway and hope you don't find out, and act like nothing is wrong.

It means to let someone down. While knowing you can change it, stop it, but continue nonetheless.

Feelings being hurt, because of situations that are beyond our control, are not intentional. Unplanned. planning something on the wrong date, not knowing something is important to someone, (although it seem obvious to one person, we are not mind readers) those are temporary and can be worked though. Misunderstandings, they can be worked though with honesty, time, support, prayer. Communication. Say what you mean, yes means YES, no means NO! (See? I took words from Pastor Nate again :))

So those are my feelings. and they mean exactly what you think they mean. They don't make good song lyrics, but, it's me.

one.

Did you ever stare at the moon
Til you saw double?

I hear you walk away from touble.

Actions.

"There is no need to promise or swear if you ALWAYS follow through."

-Pastor Nate

Gifts.

I was born to be an encouraging servant. I believe these are my spiritual gifts.

He Loves Us.

He is jealous for me
Love's like a hurricane,
I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of
His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
and I realize just how beautiful You are and how great your affections are for me.

We are His portion and
He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption
by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss and my heart turns
violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way

my angel.

I loved you even before I knew you.
I loved you for as long as I can remember.
The moment I saw you, everything made sense.
That love that is so incredible, it's almost like it can't possibly exist.
it does.
And it's yours.
You will grow up,
you will abuse my love for you
But it will never change.
You are my constant wordly companion and I will do everything I can for you.
My daughter.
Ramey Jones.
My beautiful daughter.

Disturb Us.

"Disturb us, Lord, when we are too well pleased with ourselves.
When our dreams have come true because we dreamed too little.
When we arrive safely because we have sailed too close to the shore.
Disturb us, Lord."
-Sir Francis Drake

No more wandering. No more emptiness. No more searching.